job search

So, I graduated with my fancy degrees in May, and now I'm looking for a job. One that pays. Money. I'm not looking for the barter system, thanks.

While this may seem pretty basic, it is actually "not trivial" (a phrase I've borrowed from B who borrowed it from a favorite prof) for me to be looking for a job that pays money. Once upon a time, about a week ago, I would have told you that I didn't care about the pay, as long as it was a job that I loved. In my world, as long as I was doing something exciting, the money would magically appear. On trees? More like from B's job.

B and I had a conversation last week in which I realized that hey, that puts a lot of pressure on him. And hm, expecting him to make the $$ while I "do what I love" is not exactly fair. Nevermind, I would tell myself, he's ok with it. I was totally deluding myself.

For me, it wasn't my job to worry about money, and money wasn't going to be a factor in my marriage. Love conquers all. You didn't know that? Besides, money was bad and dirty, and people who like to make money or who care about money are bad. (but spending money is totally different!) Wait a minute... who is someone I know who cares quite a bit about providing a comfortable life for his family, and is quite interested in making money? That's right, my very own husband.

Suddenly this money thing was not looking so insignificant. It was getting in the way of our marriage, and the love we share. I saw that I could either hang onto this attitude, and reap the problems it creates between us, or let it go and open up to the possibility of abundance in our lives. Once I saw the choice, it was pretty easy to give up the attitude that money is bad and dirty, and I actually got excited about having a job and making money. And in that moment, B and I began working together to provide for our family.

So that's it. I'm on a job search, and I'm ready to find something. And I sent off my first cover letter today, for a dream job as a staff attorney at a non-profit healthcare advocacy organization.

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zoiks, I just realized I already missed my promise of 2 blog posts per week. thanks for keeping me on track! I'll plan to do a short one from Florida this weekend.